Currently Listening Garden State By Various Artists Caring is Creepy by The Shins see related

I've been having these real horrible headaches lately. I think it's due to lack of sleep and stress. I'm actually sick of writing all the time too. I keep telling myself it's just one more month and that's it! I hate Finals! Have my first exam on the 18th. That's like 2 more days! Eeek!

For once, I'm actually excited about my birthday this time. That's on the 20th. Even though, I have exam and I'll be fasting AND I'll be studying for my next exam I just have a feeling it'll be better than the last one!

So, that's that! All is good at my end, thanks to my new addiction to Veezo and Big Apple!

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I have my exams starting next week! Eeek! Have been pretty stressed out lately, things at home aren't going so great either. I think it's all stress related. What sucks even more is that I have an exam on the 20th (my birthday) and the other two days before Eid. We won't be going to my step mum's village or Karachi this time because of my stupid exams.

I think I'm starting to like my friend, Amin. Not sure if he likes me too. Zehra says there is potential because we're good friends and stuff. Hmph! Someone should create a device that would detect if a guy has feelings for you or not!!! Life would be so much more easier then, I wouldn't be day dreaming or thinking of ways to impress him and shit. Or, maybe I'm just exaggerating over how great he's been and mixing the feeling of having him as a friend with something else. Blargh, whatever!

It all just sucks! Argh!

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For the past three days, I've just been running around doing chores and studying. Haven't been getting any sleep. I end up feeeling awful in the morning. I don't know what to do. Exams are near and there's so much to do. By the time it's 10 pm I feel awfully sleepy but then it just flys away the minute I start thinking of the exam dates. Eventually, I go to sleep around 4 am or so.

My step mum has been complaining about this unbearable pain in her feet, which was due to the first accident. Apparently something happened to these two nerves near the lower spine which is causing the spliting pain. She's not supposed to bend or pick up anything heavy. The consequences could lead to her being paralyzed from waist-below. I feel totally responsible for it. She's on medication and we'll find out the progress in two months or so. I hope she gets better. :(

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Omar is turning naughtier day by day. He's only like a year old. I wuuuuuuvvv my baby brother!!!! eeeeeee... everytime I see him I just feeel like juicifying him, then mixing him up in a slushy machine and drinking him up.. or just frying his cheeeks would do tooo... Gosh!!! I should stop with the cannibalism!!

So, tomorrow is my friend Arzoo's boyfriends birthday. I really want to go but can't because I'm broke and I don't have a car. I guess, we'll work something out tomorrow. Since, my dads leaving tomorrow I might just drop by at the little get-together before class.BLARGGHH!

I had a sudden urge to drive yesterday. I usually go slow and try not to drive when there is a lot of traffic. So, I was on my way to my class with my driver right next to me telling me what to do and my friend at the back. There came this point where I had to turn right and it was a slope. I wasn't really scared because I was pretty used to the whole stopping on slopy roads and waiting for my turn. What I failed to realize was that there was a pretty crazy amount of traffic headed towards me from the left, which made it hard for me to cross and go over to the other side. Anyway, there was this van in front of me and all these other cars at the back waiting for me to just make a move, hence, I decided to push the accelerator and simply follow the van. I saw this car which was at a pretty far off distance. It wasn’t honking its horns or anything but I thought I saw him flicker his lights in broad daylight. As I followed the van the car that flicked its lights just crashed into us. No one got hurt but the front left door just went inside. I went forward and stopped the car and got out to see what happened and all. I couldn't stop shaking and was in an utter state of shock. I still am. The guy who hit us was pretty angry just the stare he gave me intimidated me like anything. I told my dad the minute the accident took place, he didn’t scream at me or anything. The driver drove later on and dropped us off for class. I couldn't study at all just felt weird. I didn't break into tears I was just really worried of what was to become of me and the other driver’s car.

My dad’s driver from the office picked me up and brought me home. He told me that my dad wanted to see me. I was shit scared the minute he said that. I instead got off and went to my dad’s co worker, Shahnaz Aunty’s place. The minute I saw her I just burst into tears. Later, I went back home. For an hour, I couldn't see my dad or mum. When I finally did it seemed like he didn’t really care and consoled me that it was the other drivers fault and he was supposed to stop for me instead of driving really fast causing an accident. I don’t know whose fault it was. I just felt really awful because this is my second accident in just 20 days. So, I feel like I’m cursed or something. It all just awful. I don’t think I want to drive again. I don’t know how long it takes to get over these things at all, but I want it to stop haunting me every 30 minutes.